one more kiss, dear

I am a hypocrite. If you could see my page view history you would see a smattering of social causes and a whole lotta shopping. These two aspects contradict one another. I have enough of an altruistic streak that I seek to help causes for social justice yet I also have an equally strong and socially approved acquisitive streak. Sometimes I think about acquiring a luxury item that will ‘help’ me gain social approval (so I’m told) and then I think about what an equal sum of money will do to create value in the world. I am trying to enact change in my life and think one of my quarterly goals will be to find greater balance between my consumption and my philanthropy. While I do have a tendency to accumulate; I also have a sensitive nature that seeks harmony. My goal is to reduce my consumer spending by 1/3 and raise my charitable donations by 250%. I would like have to greater correlation between my ideals and my actions.
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one more sigh
only this dear
is goodbye
for our love
is such passion
such pleasure
I will treasure
until I die