“The Holidays” are a unique time of year that bring together things like oddball schedules, long nights and cold temps, the social pressure of holidayism, hopping back and forth between work and vacation, and of course the end of the regular season.
I’m finding it hard to stay focused on one thing, no matter what it might be. From work duties to leisure pursuits gym routines to making travel plans, I feel that I have descended into a maelstrom of shifting moods, focal points, tasks, and goals. I have been able to do some things well, but other stuff seems to stutter-start or start and then fail.
It’s ok. I’m not really tripping off it, as much as trying to take stock in hopes that by doing so, I’ll be able to regain some sense of managability. As my thoughts jump around – from work and wireframes to snowboards and travel to music to… you get the idea – it feels like no matter what I am doing, I need to either devote more attention or put it down and do something else. Where did this feeling come from!?
It wasn’t a problem when I was on vacation. But ever since I came back from Cambria, and now that I am sensing a certain amount of pressure to pull things together, get back on the wagon, and in general be a productive person, the winds are growing ever more swirly.
I do have a slight suspicion that the radical mellowness of my vacation was a bit too intoxicating, and so the mental and emotional effort required to get back up to normal speed is greater than I’ve had to muster before. Such, I suppose, is the price of total relaxation.
That is not to say that I haven’t been able to get stuff done. In a few respects, I have been successful in corralling my brainwaves for long enough to do some very satisfying design and production work. Heck, I even made it to the gym yesterday. But overall, the storm is a bit heavy. I need some focus, yo.
CAMBRRRRRIAAAA