Friday Dog Blogging (The Return of…)

Moula siteseeing in SF

I spent many years oh my life without ever taking a daytime nap. It wasn’t that long ago when I sincerely felt that the idea of a mid-day nap was an unnecessary indulgence. Today, that notion seems pretty silly. In fact for the past two weeks, I’ve taken a nap almost every day. Of course I have excellent justifications for this nadir of nodding. Between work, which has been very demanding, an intensification of my gym routine, and travel, I’ve been pushing myself hard (while awake). And there’s another factor which can’t be avoided: I am aging. Gettin’ older. Not a spring chicken anymore. (Can’t take that string much further before I’ll be forced to use terminology I’d rather avoid.)

Anywho, after springing into 2009 with a blaze of energy and a sense of mission, the first two weeks of February seemed to have been a payback of sorts. Not that I am discouraged, but I do have the sense that my brain and body, while stimulated by my January flurries, were maybe a little fatigued from them as well. So now what?

First thing is to not be discouraged. On the bright side, January was a phenomenal moment for me, and let’s not forget it was a full 8.3% of 2009. That’s not a huge chunk, but it is a lot more than nothing. The ideas and inspirations that flowed through my veins two weeks ago have not disintegrated yet! I have a ton of ideas, plans, ambitions and goals that mean a lot to me. And don’t get me wrong; the past two weeks have not been fruitless by any means. But aside from work and gym, I haven’t been keeping up with things: writing, studying, and life managment have suffered.

So here I am on a Saturday morning all revved up to attack the weekend and make February mine. Mine, mine, MINE!

First of all, I have a big issue I need to challenge which I think is part of this lull: Avoidance. It’s a big problem and I need to get over it. I used to think that I was a procrastinator, but when it comes to important things I’ve come to the conclusion that procrastinating is not the issue. It’s worse than that. I have this tendency to avoid confronting issues (work, people, projects) where I’m uncertain of how to approach, or where I might encounter some level of unpleasantness.

It’s a bad habit and a crutch and I need to fight it. I hope to one day overcome it, but that is a long term proposition. For now, for this month, the plan is to take stock of things that I’ve been avoiding and take them on, one by one. I don’t expect it’ll be easy, but if I can just deal with, say, one thing a day, I’m pretty sure it will start me down the right path. And with that, I appear to have broken my February blog silence. It feels so good to be back!!